Kesabaran Seorang Kekasih

;) mlm ni second blog yg aku post. huhhh. taw x sekarang dh pkul brapa? dah dkt 2.30pg. aku still segar mata.. menahan hati, supaya jgn marah.. bersabar dan terus menunggu sang kekasih hati yang kian hari kian berubah... setiap hari lebih kurang setahun setangah, beginilah keadaan hidup ku malam dan siang. menanti seorang sahabat karib, teman dan kekasih yg satu2 wujud dlm hdp ku dan menemani kesepian ku dalam masa 2thn setengah. 

Salah ke aku mengeluh?? Aku ke yg takde life or mmg dia yg have change alot? sedih aku kenangkan? seolah2 aku hilang seorang kawan yg begitu rapat dgn ku, dan lebih memahami ku berbanding yg laen -exception for my family of course. kehilangan

?? aku masih ade dia. dia masih milik ku seperti takdir yg tuhan tentukan.. Namun.. Hati, kasih sayang& perhatian darinya tak lg seperti dulu. itu yang paling menyayat hati. KINI.. siang, mlm, tiada lg kawan ku utk ku cerita kn semua yg terbuku dihati. yang tinggal hanya seorang lelaki, yang berangapan hatiku milik nya dan apa pun terjadi aku ttp bersamanya sehingga dia tak lg memikirkan hati ku.. 

SYUKRI..

mungkin dia lebih istimewa dr ex2 bf aku yg laen.

aku sendiri tak tahu apa yg ada pada hingga i've close my eyes & hearts for all men out there.

atau ini mmg takdir??

atau aku yang takut pada perubahan?

ohhh... sampai sekarang.. semua org dah bg pendapat..

sama.. serupa... spatutnya aku yakin dgn mereka!!

tapi... kenapa dia masih dihati?

ayi.. ayi taw x yg ayi special sgt bg nana. Nana tak tahu kenapa...

IF YOU'RE  NOT THE ONE....

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings 
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away 
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?